Its been a couple of weeks...maybe more since my last blog entry and it is time for ANOTHER! YAY!
Anyway, I have a special announcement concerning this blog; I'm planning on making this a weekly thing...meaning that there should be an entry per week...this is a good thing. I have plenty of things to say, rant about, debate, talk about, etc. So keep an eye out for more entries! They should be coming out either on Fridays or Saturdays, this isnt set in stone yet. I'll have to see how it works with life.
But now...ON TO THE MEAT OF THE POST! =D
So, you may be wondering what the title of the entry has to do with anything, it does...I promise. It has to do with certain recent events in my life. Recently someone decided to bring up my past in a debate to...soil who I am trying to become.
Am I happy with what I have done in my past? No. Would I have done things differently, yes. Regrets? Plenty...but the things I did all contributed to who I am today, and who I will become in the future. However, certain things needed to go, in order for me to better myself...things like stop hanging out with certain people, stop doing certain things and activities...things like that.
Earlier, the song, Blow Me (One Last Kiss) came on the radio...and I realized that the song kinda relates to how I feel in regards to the things that I had to let go off or "Kiss" good-bye. If you haven't heard the song, give it a listen...but to be safe, make sure you find the radio version (if you have sensitive ears.) Here is the part in particular that I relate to...
"I think I've finally had enough, I think I maybe think too much
I think this might be it for us (blow me one last kiss)
You think I'm just too serious, I think you're full of sh-t
My head is spinning so (blow me one last kiss)"
How does this relate? Well, like I said, I said good-bye to the proverbial cancer that was in my life and cut the diseased parts out of my life...was it easy, no, painful, yes. Was it necessary in order for me to move forward yes. I still struggle with what I did...because I enjoyed what I did. But it was slowly eating at me...and I didnt even notice...so I had to burn bridges, burn forests and begin anew...from "seeds". The land may still and may forever bear the scars of these actions.
For example, there were certain people in my life that were affecting me in a negative way...in fact they were most people I spent my time around...so after a while, I didn't have many people to talk to or spend time with. For my goals for the new year, I renewed my goal of mend/renew old friendships and to make new friends to replace those that I let go of...At first it was very slow going...but then towards the end of February, God reintroduced someone to me and my life. I want you to know that I thought I would never see or really talk to this person ever again, but God had different plans...this person is Maura...and through Maura, the rest of her family again. I love her family. Her parents were my first youth group leaders, and they have a special place in my heart for that. Also, through her, I got back into Ballroom/Latin dance, which has been an interest of mine since just after High School. SO, I let go of a lot of negative, and got a LOT of good back...now speaking of dancing...I keep hearing people say that Ballroom/Latin dancing is a Gay (homosexual) thing for a guy to do.
...look at that picture...look at it long at hard. Now tell me, what is gay about that? I mean if that is "gay", then what is wrestling? It really annoys me whenever people say its gay. People say this in ignorance, because they don't understand.(In case you were wondering, the picture is of One of the pairs from season 16 of Dancing with the Stars, Zendaya and Val.) There is certainly nothing to lose by learning dance, its an incredibly fun skill to have, you can take it wherever you go, you can meet many people through it, and the health benefits are huge, it has mental benefits, physical benefits and even emotional benefits...who wouldn't want that?!
I do! It certainly beats running on a treadmill or something like that at the gym, (that's also good.) But its more fun to exercise while learning or doing something like dancing ;-) (See what I did there?)
Now that I'm back in it, I'd like to get good enough to compete and just hone and develop my skills for social dancing as well, will I ever be as good as the guy in the picture above? probably not haha. But Id like to be. Right now Im taking group lessons at the Royal Palace Dance Studio in Manchester and what a great place it is! The professionals are amazing and awesome people to learn from, and if you are interested, come check us out! I even have free week long passes!
Anyway, I'd like to start taking private lessons, but the money isn't there right now...(sad face) and there is a competition coming in August to Costa Rica, and I'd LIKE to go...but who knows...
If you were wondering because of the picture, yes, I DO watch Dancing with the Stars...this is the first season I've watched and I love it.
Well, its late and I have a busy day tomorrow...so good night world.